I’m in a very strange mood today and it is definitely affecting my food intake. I’m all moody – felt like crying TWICE this am listening to the radio before I even left my bedroom - and I appear to be having an allergy attack on top of that (I do NOT have adult onset allergies!). I am finally feeling awake enough to function (at 3PM?!). My body feels like it was on strike after the two-hour bellydance class last night that I went to pre-exhausted.
I feel like someone else, and on top of that it is a VERY bad hair day…
I’ve been surviving on caffeine as a result…3 cups of black tea with nonfat milk, my morning shake and then HMR double-shake oatmeal for something warm and comforting. Banana and carrots and (soon) an apple and oranges as snacks. I have 2 pre-made shakes on hand…I may even go and warm up the chocolate one so that it will be soothing and comforting…wonder if the vanilla one would be good hot…hmmmmm. I was craving BBQ chicken or lasagna but didn’t have either one here. I may eat a soybean chili with corn (a favorite) but can’t decide – which my old coach used to say meant for her that she wasn’t REALLY hungry – just head hungry.
Anyway, I think my point is that the additive EC – having supportive food constantly in my environment - is going to continue to be a fundamental and critical strategy. I think I’ll go for a quick walk…but it is SO COLD OUT THERE…
I know that all those struggling with weight must have days like this. Girlie hormone fluctuations do not help at all either. The alternative is to be ignorant of these emotional highs and lows - let them control me instead of me controlling them.
Interestingly enough, the KnOP has something to say about control and struggles. He takes them head on, with a somewhat pessimistic, if stubborn attitude. I am going to take this card as a reminder to me that I need to remain stubborn in my pursuit of healthy life habits. For right now that means being in a supportive weight management program, and being committeed to the program itself.
The knight is also there to help me see the improvement project I've been working on through to the bitter end. And I feel that it will be bitter. Despite this, I need to buckle down, complete the process, write this report and move on to a 'New Day' in my career here. It is time to be finished with this project and move to the next thing - in that way I cannot agree with the knight - it is imperative that I be able to change and move to something fresh and new.
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